Every month in Sex at Our Age, award-winning senior sexpert Joan Price answers your questions about everything from loss of desire to solo sex and partner issues. Nothing is out of bounds! If you’re over 60, submit your questions to this column by emailing Joan directly at email@example.com.
A reader asks:
I am 65 and my husband is 73, married for 35 years. I no longer desire to have sexual intercourse. I had a hysterectomy by age 40 and had radiation treatments to my cervix to treat dysplasia in my early fifties. I have no libido, and intercourse is extremely painful even with lubricant. Even touching my breast is irritating because it is not sexually stimulating anymore.
Even when I try, I cannot tolerate the pain of intercourse. My husband knows this, but he wants me to do it anyway. He wants me to endure the pain long enough for him to have an orgasm.
I have suggested to my husband that he should masturbate or have sex outside the home if he cannot live without it. We have had this conversation for well over ten years. Sometimes I have said it lovingly, sometimes angrily. He always said that he will, but he does not. I do not believe he is interested in having sex outside of our marriage. He wants to have sex with me.
We have been through many years of marriage counseling on and off. We haven’t seen a sex therapist because it’s not covered by insurance and we’re living on retirement income. I have discussed my painful intercourse with my primary doctor and my oncologist. Both have suggested lubricants, but they do not prevent pain.
When I hear stories of how older adults are having the best sex of theirs lives into their 80s and even 90s, I have a hard time imagining these scenarios. Don’t women struggle with lack of libido and painful dry intercourse even if they have not had radiation and surgeries as I have?
I do not believe this situation is going to change at this point in our lives. I just want us to live out the rest of our married lives enjoying the things we both like doing together and leave behind anything that we don’t — like sexual intercourse. I wonder if there are many couples out there in similar situations who are finding ways to be happy together even though they are no longer having sex.
Your husband keeps insisting on the kind of sex that you find unbearably painful, even though he knows how much it hurts you. You do not need to tolerate this. “Aw, honey, just endure the pain while I thrust inside you until I reach orgasm” is not an acceptable request, let alone demand. He has a right to his sexual desires, but he does not have the right to inflict pain on you to get those desires met. There are plenty of other ways he can reach orgasm.
We do need lubricant at our age, but that is not enough of a solution for you because of your past medical issues. A free self-help program to decrease the pain of penetration is the Vaginal Renewal Program from A Woman’s Touch, and a pelvic floor therapist would be helpful, also. But the bigger issue in your letter is your relationship: your husband wants intercourse with you, although you find it intolerably painful.
Would you be willing to have non-penetrative sex together, or are you so turned off by his demands and your own lack of pleasure that you’d rather not have sex at all? It sounds as if you’re asking for a “companionate marriage,” which means that you love each other, you’re bonded, you want to stay together, but sex is not a part of your relationship. If that’s what you want, and your husband wants sex with you, how do you resolve that?
I’m not expecting your husband to do without sex, and to your credit, neither do you. You’ve encouraged masturbation and offered him a “free pass” to go outside the marriage. I commend you on your openness to that solution. That might not be his first choice, but he can’t have his first choice because it’s too painful for you.
You’ve been having this discussion for ten years without resolution. You need to involve a therapist or counselor who accepts your insurance and will help the two of you discuss what you need, what he needs, and what alternatives would let your marriage continue.
Please show this column to your husband and to your therapist if he won’t hear it from you. I suggest you also show it to your doctor, who does not realize the severity of your vaginal pain.
For others experiencing pain with intercourse, here are some past Senior Planet articles and other resources that you’ll find helpful:
- A Senior’s Guide to Sex Without Intercourse
- Painful Sex: Where to Go for Help
- A Senior’s Guide to Lubrication
- Vaginal Recuperation after Cancer or Surgery from A Woman’s Touch
- Naked at Our Age: Talking Out Loud about Senior Sex
- Great Sex without Penetration webinar
Readers: If you’ve had to negotiate sexual boundaries due to pain, what are your tips for talking to a partner? Let us know in the comments!
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